Monday, March 22, 2010
Oh I have been so negligent of this blog. I have had a few negative life hits lately, I just haven't had a lot to say. My ex died which was sad and guilt laden for me. Then I had an illness scare, which turned out fine; but the experience showed me just how I would react to the impending threat to my own mortality. Not well. My 23 year old son won't get a job. I think he is happy and content and intends to live with me forever. And I truly love my only child more than anything else in the world. He is smart and funny and a fun person to live with. But I fear he is missing "life" out there. He goes to work and comes home and sleeps, eats, and that's about all. Luckily he seems happy, not depressed at all, so I suppose I should let that go. One bright note in all this, when I got divorced my ex husband kept the family dog, and rightfully so; he had rescued him from the pound before our marriage. Max was his faithful companion until a few days before his death. He had told all his family that ONLY I was to have Max. He knew what a good home we would give him, and he knew it would make his absence easier on Max. He is the coolest of dogs, a mix of some sort who came from the pound. I think he looks like a small Akita or related breed, but we are jot sure. He has adapted well to our home and has given me somebody to vent to, someone who doesn't judge me or mock. me. He just agrees with whatever I say and we are both happy he is here!