"whoever touches us, teaches us....."

Monday, March 22, 2010


Oh I have been so negligent of this blog. I have had a few negative life hits lately, I just haven't had a lot to say. My ex died which was sad and guilt laden for me. Then I had an illness scare, which turned out fine; but the experience showed me just how I would react to the impending threat to my own mortality. Not well. My 23 year old son won't get a job. I think he is happy and content and intends to live with me forever. And I truly love my only child more than anything else in the world. He is smart and funny and a fun person to live with. But I fear he is missing "life" out there. He goes to work and comes home and sleeps, eats, and that's about all. Luckily he seems happy, not depressed at all, so I suppose I should let that go. One bright note in all this, when I got divorced my ex husband kept the family dog, and rightfully so; he had rescued him from the pound before our marriage. Max was his faithful companion until a few days before his death. He had told all his family that ONLY I was to have Max. He knew what a good home we would give him, and he knew it would make his absence easier on Max. He is the coolest of dogs, a mix of some sort who came from the pound. I think he looks like a small Akita or related breed, but we are jot sure. He has adapted well to our home and has given me somebody to vent to, someone who doesn't judge me or mock. me. He just agrees with whatever I say and we are both happy he is here!


Day Traveler said...

Glad to see you get back to this. I know how easy it is to let something like a blog or journal slide. Just look at how negligent I am with it. You know, your son will be fine. He'll figure it out eventually and move on into his own life. Then, you may find that you miss the time you have now.
That's a great shot of Max by the way. Sometimes, it just seems like there's nothing finer than the friendship and love of a loyal dog.

Be at peace.

secret agent woman said...

I hope you can use blogging as an outlet for some of the things going on. When I had a medical scare last year, it actually helped me to write about it and get support from everyone.

And Yay about the dog - I'm sure he'll be a great addition to your life.

sue said...

I so understand about ignoring the blog... seems sometimes "life" just gets in the way and I feel tongue-tied (finger-tied?). I hope you can blog more and get it out. It does help.

Animals love us unconditionally. They are some of my favorite "people". :)

bernthis said...

its been a long time. Hope you are doing okay. Sorry to hear about your ex? I only put the question mark b/c i'm not sure I'd feel the same if mine passed away, to be honest.

sending you warm hugs.