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Saturday, June 19, 2010

Spring,....come back!!!!

Wait what happened? I turned around and one day it was screen door weather, then it rained a few days, then the nineties arrived with a roar! Now we are besieged with  temperatures that linger in the high nineties all day, so hot  even the early morning air sucks the breath out of you. The beautiful hydrangeas you see here in  the pictures, are now burned around the edges and wilt daily in the sun. The coneflowers seem happy though, and although the leaves and stems are dry and wilty, the flowers bring vivid color to the summer garden. I go through this every year and wonder why? I am not a summer person and never have been. I hate the heat and it brings out the worst in me. It makes me feel bad, mean and ornery. My hair gets dry and frizzy, and the dog continuously drools all over my carpet as he struggles to avoid heat stroke. I check the weather daily in the state of North Carolina and I realize it gets hot there just like every where else. But in the western part, in and near the mountains it seems to always be at least 10  or more degrees cooler than here. yesterday we hit 99, they had a high of 84? Why do I stay here I wonder? What holds me to a city that I was not raised in, that I have never liked and that has nothing here for me or my son. Not saying that I don't like my job and that I didn't meet the love of my life here. But jobs can be found elsewhere. Love can survive a moving van. It isn't as hard as I make it in my head. My worries range from not knowing a soul, to realizing after signing on the dotted line and unpacking that I made a mistake. Selling a house and saying good byes seems like an undaunting mountain of tasks. I know they can each be conquered, one at a time. All this crazy zigzag of thoughts, comes from 30 minutes in the sweltering heat.... cutting and edging the grass. Actually, son cut the grass while I edged. But the years and pounds that I have over him made it much more of a "lets move" moment for me.
So, now just to ponder for a while....move or never cut the grass again?


NCmountainwoman said...

Oh, I do hope you didn't lose the herbs too.

Decisions such as relocating can be conflicting and stressful. I'm sure it has been made worse by all the recent changes in your life.

I have no advice, only to assure you know that somehow it will all work out. I'll be thinking of you.

secret agent woman said...

My hydrangeas are looking a little poorly, but in spite of our high temps we are still getting storms nearly every day so there is plenty of water.

pat said...

NC mountainwoman...well so far the little herb garden looks great, but then I can water them several times a day without too much effort.....ah well, praying for a little cooler air flow!

Day Traveler said...

All things will work together for good in time. As best you can, be at peace for now. The hot weather will pass and October will be here soon.

Vicki Lane said...

Hello, Pat, Thanks for stopping by my place. Gotta say, it's hot in the mountains too -- and dry. But, as you say, cooler here than to the east.

Relocation is always scary. We did it back in '75 and for us, it turned out all good.