"whoever touches us, teaches us....."

Sunday, February 10, 2008

34. He helped me find my joy

I used to paint some when I was younger, especially before I was married, then divorced. I lost the desire to create something that was beautiful to me, let alone to someone else. It seemed unimportant and a waste of my time, really. Then my sister needed some art for an office she was decorating. She had a budget, and being aways broke I needed her budget money. So I produced this...


And I made a little money which was nice. But I didn't particularly enjoy painting it. It was more like a job. So I bought some new canvases, but put them aside and didn't paint for months. Not long ago, I spent a really good weekend with Larry. I don't know why it was so special, but it was just...that. Sometimes, after he leaves at the end of the weekend... and we face the long work week, I feel sad and lonely; sort of lost. But after this weekend, I felt happy, full of hope and full of joy. I want more joy in my life. I want more hope. We choose to allow joy into our lives. We choose to recognize what brings us joy. So, one thing I know is that Larry brings me joy. And I rediscovered my canvases which also bring me joy. And now I have this new painting in my bedroom. I love it.




7 comments:

citizen of the world said...

That's gorgeous. What a peaceful scene - I really love the ocean. And with any luck, you can hang on to what brings you joy regardless of what actually happens in your life.

Jennifer said...

It's truly beautiful. Both of them, actually. Such a wonderful talent, and a joyful one, at that!

pat said...

I won't let it get away ever again.....

amusing said...

When I got divorced, I stopped writing. As you may have noticed, that's [mostly] healed now...

Phyllis S said...

Beautiful scene. And I love the idea of choosing to allow joy in our lives.

Coll said...

They are both truly beautiful. You are indeed very talented.

100 Thoughts of Love said...

then I sold it to my bestest friend cousin...So happy she has it, but I needed the money or I would have given it to her!