"whoever touches us, teaches us....."

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Todays Joy: $5.99 Tulips from the Grocery Store



I think I have posted most the topics I can post off my list "100 Things I Love About Larry". There are actually 102 at the moment and it will probably continue to grow and I still have a few more things I want to say about Larry. But many of the topics are just too personal to post for the public to read. Some just too directly relate to his life and I don't want to cross the line of cyber-privacy (although I doubt there is one). The purpose of my writing about him in the first place was a self assigned lesson. Certainly not an original idea in blog-space, it was a transition for me between getting a divorce and merging back into the real world. In a bitter time of accusations and claiming ownership of stuff and bickering phone calls; the best therapy for me was simple joy. For some reason I was not able to find it in myself. I am a mother, a sister, a daughter, I have held the same job for many years , I am independent, I am a decent artist.....I am all these things but I still needed someone else to validate me. Larry made it easy for me. He just mirrors me....he makes me see my self for who I am. I love him. I have loved writing about him and each post helps me see what brings me joy in life. And I hope I am not through writing about Larry, not yet anyway yet. I hope there is more time with him. But, I think I need to develop the joys that I find in myself. I need to be able to pull a joy out on my own; when Larry isn't here to show it to me. I think I might have other things to write about. And I want to paint more and maybe share that here. So to the half dozen or so readers out there, if they are still lhere...a little change in format is coming up!

4 comments:

citizen of the world said...

That's cool, we'll moroh with you.

(Tulips are one of my all-time favorite cut flowers.)

Phyllis S said...

I've enjoyed the trip so far; I'm interested to see where we go next.

Coll said...

You paint..how wonderful. I would love to see your work.

pat said...

Citizen I love tulips too i wish i could grow them...

Phyllis thanks for sticking with me thus far

Colleen scroll down to feb and there are 2 paintings that i did pictured there